I'm a normal girl. I like the feel of the sun on my skin and the sound of music in my ear. I like icecream, and chick flicks and especially girls nights filled with pillowfights. I love the days that i spent with my friends in which i will never forget, because they made every minute count. I keep things inside and only let them out when i have to, and as often as i can, i try to spare a persons feelings. I like rainy days, when i can curl up infront of the tv and watch the entire first season of sex and the city. I like magazines, make up and nailpolish. And yes, it is true, Clothing is my obession. I talk too fast because i have tons of stories that will make you laugh until you cry, and some of them, will just make you cry.
I am plain, but creative. I am shy, but out going I am crazy but sensitive and I am pretty but not yet beautiful.
I keep scrapbooks and memories boxes. My room is covered with photographs that scream out memories of all sorts. I have done stupid, yet funny things. Some things i have no explanation for doing. My paradise is at my cottage in the summer; with a drink in hand, and my tanning lotion in the other. Its ture that i've had my heart completely broken, and i'll admit, it is still damaged beyond repair. I love to be alone, for self-reflection time of course, but lonliness is my worst fear. That, and being without my mom. I'd be lost and uselesss with out her.
And most importantly, I have loved, been loved, and will continue to love.
MUSIC Cauterize, Eminem, Mugshot, Crush Luther, Ludacris, Fall Out Boy, The Spill Canvas, NWA, Snoop Dogg, Dr.Dre, Britney Spears, Backstreet Boys, Funeral For A Friend, MSI, Pantera, The Killers, Foo Fighters, Weezer, Dashboard Confessional, Matchbox 20, Marilyn Manson, Ashlee Simpson, Taking Back Sunday, Gwen Stafani, Kelly Clarkson, D12, ABBA, Kayne West, Lil Jon and the eastside boys, The ying yang twins, Matchbook Romance, Silverstein.
MOVIES BeetleJuice, TEENAGE MUTANT NINJA TURTLES [1,2&3]!, The Notebook♥, The Breakfast club, Pretty In Pink, Blow, POTC, Going the distance, Without a paddle, Moulin Rouge, Thirteen, Titanic, Chicago, Mean Girls, The Hot Chick, Pretty Woman, I'll sleep when im dead, Scarface, Napolian Dynamite, Anything with Adam Sandler, Shrek 1&2, 8 Mile, Benny and Joon, Valentine, Urband Legends, Dukes Of Hazzard, The Wedding Singer, St.Elmo's Fire.
Things Ryan♥.American Eagle.Cheeseburgers.Lipgloss.Pinky Swears.Nailpolish.Msn.Cell Messages.Love songs.Necklaces.Cherrios.Milkshakes.Cooking.Baking.Surprises.Hugs.Pictures.Webcams.Mascara.My Kitten, Smokey♥.Livejournal.Kisses.Singing.Hot tubs.Love Letters.Friends.Sweatpants and Dvd days.Late phone calls.Tanning.Music.Lame jokes.Flip-Flops.Winks.Chicken.The Mall.French Manicures.Photo Albums.11:11.Love.Quotes.Cowboys.Dancing.Chili.Text Messages.
A friend will pick you up when you fall down... a best friend will laugh because they're the one that tripped you. <3
[♥] -Tori and Alexus- Your real friends see the tears before they fall from your eyes. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
My Favourite Poem
Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poem And he called it "Chops" because that was the name of his dog And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and a gold star And his mother hung it on the kitchen door and read it to his aunts That was the year Father Tracy took all the kids to the zoo And he let them sing on the bus And his little sister was born with tiny toenails and no hair And his mother and father kissed a lot And the girl around the corner sent him a Valentine signed with a row of X's and he had to ask his father what the X's meant And his father always tucked him in bed at night And was always there to do it
Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines he wrote a poem And he called it "Autumn" because that was the name of the season And that's what it was all about And his teacher gave him an A and asked him to write more clearly And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because of its new paint And the kids told him that Father Tracy smoked cigars And left butts on the pews And sometimes they would burn holes That was the year his sister got glasses with thick lenses and black frames And the girl around the corner laughed when he asked her to go see Santa Claus And the kids told him why his mother and father kissed a lot And his father never tucked him in bed at night And his father got mad when he cried for him to do it.
Once on a paper torn from his notebook he wrote a poem And he called it "Innocence: A Question" because that was the question about his girl And that's what it was all about And his professor gave him an A and a strange steady look And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because he never showed her That was the year that Father Tracy died And he forgot how the end of the Apostle's Creed went And he caught his sister making out on the back porch And his mother and father never kissed or even talked And the girl around the corner wore too much makeup That made him cough when he kissed her but he kissed her anyway because that was the thing to do And at three a.m. he tucked himself into bed his father snoring soundly
That's why on the back of a brown paper bag he tried another poem And he called it "Absolutely Nothing" Because that's what it was really all about And he gave himself an A and a slash on each damned wrist And he hung it on the bathroom door because this time he didn't think he could reach the kitchen.
"When you’re 16, logic and experience don’t matter. All that matters is the way you feel and the way you felt the first time you knew it was love."
The Three Of Us..♥ <-[♥]- 'Friends.' A simple word isn't it? It's uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to. Now I know that friends aren't that, they're the people that touch your heart. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just because it was with them. They're the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don't judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are. They look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with. You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs and smiles. You're tied together by love for the other. Friendship is one of the greatest things in the world. I find my time with my friends, the best times of my life. My friends are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, tears, love and my life. I love you girls <3 -[♥]-
UPCOMMING IMPORTANT DATES FOR 2006 December 31st 2005- New years jam with the crew at marks house <3 January 24th- My Birthday! February 14th- Valentines dayyy ;) March 4th- CAUTERIZE CONCERT! March 10th-March Break March 11th-THE DOCKS WITH THE GIRLS :> May 13thFALL OUT BOY CONCERT!
.-ALEXUS, AMANDA, MYSELF- . Friends are those rare people who ask how you are<3 and then wait to hear the answer
DARE YOU TO SCREAM- CAUTERIZE
Pour another drink for me I like it better when I’m numb Something's gotta give These conversations make me dumb You look so good when your scared It turns me on when you fear for your life
I couldn’t love you any better You’ve turned me into a killer And im sorry but you’re all outta luck tonight Baby your time is up Something's gotta hold of me, doesn't want you to breathe Stands over u watch you plead, I'll be the last thing you see Go ahead I dare you to scream The words can live with me Pleading wont take you anywhere Decided not to care
Don’t waste another breathe on me Your gonna need every one Don’t waste your time with this Your dying moments almost done There is no time for last words Your life should be flashing right about now
I couldn’t love you any better You’ve turned me into a killer And im sorry but you’re all outta luck tonight Baby your time is up Something's gotta hold of me, doesn't want you to breathe Stands over you and watch you plead, I'll be the last thing you see Go ahead I dare you to scream The words can live with me Pleading wont take you anywhere Decided not to care
iv’e decided not to care iv’e decided not to care Iv’e decided not to care
Like Romeo and Juliet were dying in the end We never loved each other, at least I never did And if you did you had a sick way of showing it Star crossed lovers and the blackest of skies Had a dream about the 2 of us, one of us died I’m sorry you had to die like this tonight
I couldn’t love you any better (I couldn’t love you any better) You’ve turned me into a killer (You’ve turned me into a killer) And I’m sorry but you’re all outta luck tonight You’re all outta luck tonight Baby your time is up Something's gotta hold of me, cause it wants you to breathe Stands over you and watch you plead, I'll be the last thing you see Go ahead I dare you to scream The words can live with me Pleading wont take you anywhere I've decided not to care