YOU GAVE THIS PLACE SO MUCH COLOUR

lonely_letdown @ 2006-10-02T20:22:00

2006-10-03T00:25:29Z

"kay so basically.
this live journal has gone to hell. I never post anymore.
Half my friends on here dont know my name anymore, or remotely whats going on in my life.
So i made a new LJ girls, and i want you too add me. please.
I will update often and comment on yours too. just need a clean start.
Deal? okay thanks.

citadelofstars8

lonely_letdown @ 2006-08-22T00:48:00

2006-08-22T04:48:55Z

In final conclusion, im going to be fine with or without Ryan.
kthankx.

lonely_letdown @ 2006-08-04T14:24:00

2006-08-04T18:25:53Z

anxioustokill says:
you didnt text me tori

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 Caitlin Mother Fucking Oneill..BFF says:
i wanted to, but i know you have things to think about and so do i now

anxioustokill says:
likw what?

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 Caitlin Mother Fucking Oneill..BFF says:
well, you say your going to come back.. but if you do, your jus tgoign to leave again

anxioustokill says:
why?

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 Caitlin Mother Fucking Oneill..BFF says:
it just seems that way i guess..

anxioustokill says:
ok..

anxioustokill says:
you know i love you right?

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 Caitlin Mother Fucking Oneill..BFF says:
yeah

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 Caitlin Mother Fucking Oneill..BFF says:
and i love you

anxioustokill says:
i hope so

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 Caitlin Mother Fucking Oneill..BFF says:
no i do, thats why this hurts so much

anxioustokill says:
it hurts me too... its just that it bothered me and i want to figure it out without it being a factor... it others me and i will resolve it

anxioustokill says:
you mean too much to me tori

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 Caitlin Mother Fucking Oneill..BFF says:
i dont want to loose you

anxioustokill says:
you dont have to

anxioustokill says:
and you wont

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 Caitlin Mother Fucking Oneill..BFF says:
i hope not

anxioustokill says:
tori dont

anxioustokill says:
this will work

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 Caitlin Mother Fucking Oneill..BFF says:
ok

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet;; <3 Caitlin MotherFucken Oneill..BFF --CHENELLE says:
were you mad that i didnt text you

anxioustokill says:
i was sad

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet;; <3 Caitlin MotherFucken Oneill..BFF --CHENELLE says:
i didnt sleep much last night

anxioustokill says:
so are you and chenelle goign to hate on me and dave?

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet;; <3 Caitlin MotherFucken Oneill..BFF --CHENELLE says:
of course not

anxioustokill says:
i fuckign love you tori

anxioustokill says:
(L)

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet;; <3 Caitlin MotherFucken Oneill..BFF --CHENELLE says:
promise?

anxioustokill says:
yes baby i promise

anxioustokill says:
ima go eat i gotta work tongiht ttyl

anxioustokill says:
text me ill be going to the cottage with andros

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet;; <3 Caitlin MotherFucken Oneill..BFF --CHENELLE says:
just text me when you get there

anxioustokill says:
oki

lonely_letdown @ 2006-08-03T18:39:00

2006-08-03T22:40:29Z

anxioustokill says:
hi

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
hi

anxioustokill says:
dont hate me tori

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
so your breaking up with me over this

anxioustokill says:
its jus something ive come to realise

anxioustokill says:
tori

anxioustokill says:
it just bothers me

anxioustokill says:
it seems like there is so much working against us

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
it shouldnt matter

anxioustokill says:
i know but it does

anxioustokill says:
and i hate tjhat we dont have anything in common

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
ok

anxioustokill says:
doesnt it bother you?

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
well i see it, and everyone see's it. but were prefect togeterh rwgardless. and i cant change. this is who i am.

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
i've always been this way, and i cant change to be something im not.

anxioustokill says:

and this is who i am
--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
i love you for it

anxioustokill says:
but its eatting at me

anxioustokill says:
and i feel its something needed

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
alright

anxioustokill says:
tori i dont want anyone else i love you.... it just bothers me and i cant deal with it cause i dont know how

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
well i dont know what you expect of me

anxioustokill says:
i dont expect anything of you... plain out we are just different people

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
yeah

anxioustokill says:
i love you tori that is so undeniable

anxioustokill says:
it just hurts knowing that we arent connected on that level

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
wel then im sorry.

anxioustokill says:
tori you hat me

anxioustokill says:
hate*

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
i dont hate you. i hate the fact that i actually fell in love with you and it ended.

anxioustokill says:
im not saying im going to stop loving you tori, and i dont want you to forget me or ignore me,....i guess i just need some time,....but i will always love you. im sorry and i know you must hate me and think im etarded but its really something important to m and it cant just be ignored....

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
ok

anxioustokill says:
promise me you wont abandon me?

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
yeah

anxioustokill says:
do you still love me?

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
of course i do

anxioustokill says:
can we still be friends and have hangouts?

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
sure

anxioustokill says:
no not sure

anxioustokill says:
i want to tori

anxioustokill says:
im not leaving you forever

anxioustokill says:
your fucking gorgeous and amazing in every way i want to marry you... but i obviously need to sort some things out

anxioustokill says:
can we hang out like late saturday or sunday after work?

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
late saturday

anxioustokill says:
ok

anxioustokill says:
promise me you wont go for jamie right away/.

anxioustokill says:
'?*

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
only if you promise you wont go for jenna

anxioustokill says:
lol im not planning on it sweetie....besides i have my amp and im going to be busy making it big so i can marry you and buy you lots of tattoos and piercings and cool clothes

anxioustokill says:
im not lying when i say i want to be with you again tori....your the first girl to ever treat me good and respect me even if im an emo
goof who cant dance

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
lmao

anxioustokill says:
nicwe name.....

anxioustokill says:
can you txt me later?

anxioustokill says:
oh.... i cut a yhuge chunk out of my finger

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
yeah i'll text you late

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
r

anxioustokill says:
at like 6 am and its still gushing...

anxioustokill says:
i locv you tori

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
i love you back

anxioustokill says:
love*

anxioustokill says:
txt me later ok?

--TORI Because Broken Bones And Black Eyes Are A Safe Bet. ;; <3 says:
yeah

lonely_letdown @ 2006-06-08T18:52:00

2006-06-08T22:53:12Z

Do that whole add thing.
www.myspace.com/ripped_vintage

lonely_letdown @ 2006-05-08T18:28:00

2006-05-08T22:44:56Z

What an eventful life i lead, where i fuck everything up and dont realize what i've done until days later. However, the slight, but rather drastic 'mistake' I made on friday night was everything I could ever asked for, and yes, it was with Justin. Lying in bed with him until 6 am talking all night, and then falling asleep togetehr and waking up at 8 to have a tickle war, during all of this, Mark didnt even come to mind.

Im a fuck-up i know.

lonely_letdown @ 2006-03-05T18:35:00

2006-03-06T00:03:15Z

OOOOOOMMMMMMGGGG! Last night was honestly* the BEST night of my life. Not only were we literally 7 inches away from cauterize, we met, talked,hugged and took pictures with the guys! They were so incredibly nice and funny. So instead of typing uncontrollablly, who wants to see some pics?

PART ONE- THE LIMOOOOO!

Myself in the sexy limo

Us bitches, Amanda, me and alexus in the back being total chicks!

Me and Alexus!

Me again!

Lmao, amanda and alexus trying to figure out how to turn up the beats!

Me posing

Me and Amanda <3

Us in the club!

PART 2- CRUSH LUTHER.. EXCELLENT BAD WITH SEXY LEAD SINGER!

Crush luther lead singer

After he took off the blazer

...and then after he took off the other shirt lmao

What a babe..

During they're amazing little rap that they did

The hot guitarists for crush luther

At the beginning while we were pretty far from stage

PART 3- CAUTERIZEEE!!! <3

Dreamy josh slater, the guitarist, striking a pose for me ♥

Josh helping crush luther get their shit off the stage

Josh and jesse singing

Josh totaly rocking out

He came up, two inches away from me and i got this AMAZING picture.

Josh slater taken a shot lmao

The other guitarists for cauterize

Matt, the sexy drummer who spit water all over me (he missed his drum set.. bad time to be in the front row)

Go hard... or go home boys

jesse singing guuuhhh!

♥♥♥

The two sexiest bitches ever

This is my ultimate fav picture

Josh just givn'r

Jesse all sweaty

we are SUCH* fan girls..

The boys again

jesse! ♥

Me and slater after the showwwww! Gorgeous!

To my girls;
Thank you so much for the amazing night. For those few hours i had to the time to completly forget about everything thats gone wrong and just have the time of my LIFE*! Lets do it again sometime. ♥

Love always, even if we loose touch.
Tori.

</lj>

Me and josh and jesse from cauterize ♥

lonely_letdown @ 2006-02-15T20:07:00

2006-02-16T01:33:05Z

I'm a normal girl. I like the feel of the sun on my skin and the sound of music in my ear. I like icecream, and chick flicks and especially girls nights filled with pillowfights. I love the days that i spent with my friends in which i will never forget, because they made every minute count. I keep things inside and only let them out when i have to, and as often as i can, i try to spare a persons feelings. I like rainy days, when i can curl up infront of the tv and watch the entire first season of sex and the city. I love my boyfriend, who thinks i am the uttermost gorgeous and makes me feel entirely worth every second of his time. I like magazines, make up and nailpolish. And yes, it is true, Clothing is my obession. I talk too fast because i have tons of stories that will make you laugh until you cry, and some of them, will just make you cry.

I am plain, but creative.
I am shy, but out going
I am crazy but sensitive
and I am pretty but not yet beautiful.

I keep scrapbooks and memories boxes. My room is covered with photographs that scream out memories of all sorts. I have done stupid, yet funny things. Some things i have no explanation for doing. My paradise is at my cottage in the summer; with a drink in hand, and my tanning lotion in the other. Its ture that i've had my heart completely broken, and i'll admit, it is still damaged beyond repair. I love to be alone, for self-reflection time of course, but lonliness is my worst fear. That, and being without my mom. I'd be lost and uselesss with out her.

And most importantly, I have loved, been loved, and will continue to love.

lonely_letdown @ 2006-02-09T16:34:00

2006-02-09T21:39:08Z

HELP ME PLEASE ALL LADIES THAT HAVE HAD THEIR PROM

Today, mark asked me to prom and i really need everyone's help with the appoximate cost of things so i can start planning and saving up. I need the total run down for how much you paid for the dress, make up, manicure, hair, and anything else you can think of.

Seriously, i'd appreciate it.

lonely_letdown @ 2005-10-25T16:49:00

2005-10-25T21:00:09Z

If you woke up and I was in bed with you, what would be your first thought?

Reply here, then post the above line in your own journal.

lonely_letdown @ 2005-10-06T18:10:00

2005-10-06T22:20:30Z

Stephen broke up with me.

Spam Me Bitches!

2005-02-16T23:53:12Z

Give me 500... comments/spam in this entry. Or whatever, really. YOU, in particular, don't have to supply the whole 1,000..., but a tiny or even a big contribution would be nice. Then post this in your journal and I'll return the favor.

So this is your one and only chance to spam me with anything! Pictures, lyrics, words, icons, something you enjoy, the word spam over and over. Feel free to tell me something about yourself, whatever you want! It's all up to you. all comments/spam will be visible to everyone.

lonely_letdown @ 2004-10-10T13:14:00

2004-10-10T20:15:05Z